Fallen-H

...what am I doing?

There are days when it is obvious that I am jealous
The days I am complacent.
Mornings that desire spasms,
But nights are still lonely
Hours when greed gets the best of me,
Or any other emotion that does the same
Moments consumed with guilt,
Minutes filled with hate
But only unto myself who is the fool
Seconds of foolishness that only increases the anger,
Not directed at others but myself.
Who else can I vent my anger but unto myself
I stand by idle while turmoil spreads,
Yet do not know what to do and so feel helpless.
I feel as though I take up space,
That can be better used by someone else.
Only I stay because friends and family urge me on…
So here I stand on the precipice
But to what I don't know…
…what am I waiting for?

sometimes i feel like the moment when someone comes in the department that our people in the room should say this all synchronized: "Assimilation into the Republic of Arden is inevitable. Resistance is futile, for we have shiny flashy engine of which you will never again be able to take your eyes off ever again"

...and that's why we hide our shiny new engine to attract as little attention as possible, and sneak attack-i mean-*respond* to an incident with bright orange stuff.

not sure what it is i want to draw the most, but my first inspiration to draw was pokemon. i later tried to spread that out to diffrent other anime's....quickly found out i cant draw human shapes worth enough to save my life DX...

my first drawing was lugia, though it seemed rather good then...not so much now. should actualy load it up some time when i have confidence to do so...but anyways, i mostly enjoy drawing creatures, mostly pokemon, dragons, and somewhat starting some digimon ideas...

...?